Lately, I've been feeling insecure about things. I've loved, but never deep, nothing is working out. I know insecurities comes with love, it can't be avoided. Because there will be times, despite the length of the relationship where insecurities will occur. Love is not an experience that is just about happiness, there are more downs than ups than one can imagine. Love is like a double sided coin, consisting of happiness and pains. However, there will be happy endings for lovers out there if they can overcome the pains and despairs that comes with being in love.

Fears is an emotion that will be felt by all human beings. It's unbearable at times, but there are always ways to overcome it. As of this week, I've had my shares of fears; as the week comes to an end, there is a showcase at the end of the line. I fear that if we go on stage, that we as a whole group of showcase students won't be able to perform to the best of our ability due to lack of practice. Since Tuesday night, there hasn't been a lot of people involved in hip - hop showcase to show up to practice. This resulted in the students at practice to be unable to master the formations taught by Jaye. We've all worked hard to master all steps of the "Angel's Eyes" routine, however there aren't many people putting their effort in learning it before the showcase. And this attitude pisses me OFF >___
For the past two weeks, we the showcase students at Dancekool has been practicing extra hard for the up and coming showcase on Sunday 19th of April. Exhaustion, due to practice timings are starting to show. We've been practicing nonstop for the past two weeks at night at Sydney Entertainment Centre in the cold. Especially our teacher Jaye, I believe he is the most exhausted person for the past months and weeks preparing the routine for the showcase. Despite all his busy schedule, he's still coping with the timings and for that I AM forever greatful for all the effort he has put into organising the event. I am forever greatful for all the effort he has put into choreographing and teaching the routine. JAYE I LOVE YOU FOR BEING THE BEST TEACHER EVER!! I can't thank you enough, however I'll be out on stage on Sunday and I'll make you proud!! WOOHOOOO!! lol xD.

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These past few days have been nothing but exhausting. Dance has been taking tolls on my body for the longest time ever. Training every single day, from Monday to Sunday... I don't think it's good, but what can I do? The showcase is only a few days away and we are not getting the synchronisation I wished we have within the dance class. Everyone is at their own pace, people are just not listening to the beat of the song. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM!? I hate it when I and a few other people tries so hard to keep in sync. And the others are not keeping up with us.

Sheila, I wanna thank you for being my courage during dance practice yesterday, you took my mind off my baby and made sure I trained my hardest. Jaye thank you so much for needing me in the showcase, otherwise I wouldn't understand what else I would do during this holiday times. Also thank you for teaching us the choreography and the formations for next Sunday, I'll make sure I'll go all out to make you proud!!

Chris thanks for being a nuisance all the time yesterday, you made me laughed a lot :D. And thank you for teaching the other people the formations and the routine as well. I really appreciate your effort!! Just remember that in the showcase, don't do the normal version of the routine xD. Hahahaha, you messed up because you think of the normal routine that we've been doing for a month or so now.

On another note, lately I've been thinking about a certain person who I called my baby. And maybe it's true that he is my baby, but I don't know what to think. Because I don't want to get hurt again, I don't want to suffer the pain of falling out of love. I don't want to shed tears ever again because of love. I feel my love for him, but does he feel the same? Will it work out? I hope this budding relationship works. Cause I want it to. I MISS HIM SOO MUCH!! >.< He's in my head all the time, he just don't know it cause I don't tell him from my mouth to his ears.

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Ello peoples out there!! Today, before dance I had to go to the dentist and did a check up and also clean up xD... hehehe. I just found out that my wisdom teeth are errupting >.> mehhh, and the doctor said that I don't have to worry about it at all. And also, he told me to to stress... BUT how can I not when there's a lot of work to do in the next 3 months >.< it sucks. Ohhh, he gave me mouthwash... EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW disgusting... but what can I do? :/ it's Listerine >.> and it's really minty >.<.

After that, I went to dance. Not much happened >.> other than repeating the routine for the showcase that's happening on the 19th of April. Jaye took down sizes for shirts and also phone numbers xD hahahaha and e-mails. He just love to ask people for their phone numbers and e-mail addresses xD hehehehe. He said "You two stay behind, I need to tell you something" what the hell? He said it to me and my friend Yoko >.>.

Ohhh, I changed my nail colour again xD hahahha, now it's alternatives xD bright pink and yellow... LOL!! errrrmmm, I did it cause I was bored while checking my laptop yesterday... so I thought, why not xD hahahahaha.

Tomorrow dance practice will be at Sydney Entertainment Centre's foyer... I am actually looking forward to it xD hahahaha, cause this is the first time I go there just to dance on the street.... HOMGGGG xOx how embarrasing >.< I've never danced on the street before xD I hope it'll be fun

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